OK well I did it! I went to my first night at Weight Watchers! I was so nervous to go for two reasons, One being that I was unsure of who all would be there and judge me, and Two being that I would have to step on the scale, which is something that I haven't done in a long time! I actually know what my beginning weight was BEFORE the new medication and now.... I've gained over 20 pounds on the damn stuff.... 24 to be EXACT!
It wasn't so bad, going to the meeting, I only really knew a couple people, and no one seemed "judgey" at all! I took in all the information that the coach and speaker said to me, filled out my forms and jumped on the scale. From there, there is the "meeting" part of the night where you could ask questions and the speaker/coach would talk about your previous week. Since it didn't really apply to me, as I just started that night, I was more or less reading the information that was given to me.
I'm going to be completely honest with you friends.... my weight has NEVER been this much and I feel that in order to work on it, I must see it in writing! I starting weight is 270 lbs..... That's right, you read it correctly... 270 lbs. Holy Fuckers!! Right now as I am typing this post, I am feeling very vulnerable. I'm feeling very scared and anxious, and very very much ashamed. I am putting this out for the whole world to read. Shit just got real!! By doing this, I'm hoping that I will stick with this program, and not drop out like last time!! You can't believe all the guilt and frustration and humility associated with pressing the post button and leaving myself wide open for comments. But, as I stated earlier, I'm hoping to use it as a tool to keep me motivated!!
The way Weight Watchers works, is you are allotted a certain number of points, mine is 31, and each food is given a "point" value. ie: eggs are 0 points, where as 1 cup of 1% milk is 4 points. You track all your food choices for the day with the "points" and your main goal is to stay within your allowed points! You do have some "weekly points", that you can use if you happen to go over your daily, but that isn't the idea, and they are to be used if you were say going out for supper to a restaurant. There are several 0 point foods that are meant to help you feel full during the day or are to make better snack options, And as well as food tracking, you also track your fitness level. Now I believe the more fitness you do during a day, you are awarded some extra food points! (Haven't yet confirmed this*)
Every week I hope to being doing a blog post "check in" for my followers! It will consist of how I'm feeling, my results of my weight in and my food choices for that week, whether good or bad! I will hopefully, (fingers crossed) be also touching on what fitness routines I am also doing!
This weekly check in, is really only two days... but I'm writing it out anyway. The first day was a total flop (I actually started counting my points on the 1st, before the meeting) I ate pie and licorice! "What a failure! But I have to do better the next day", I told myself. Wednesday, the 2nd was a better day, I followed the points system well, but then had too many nuts, and a glass of milk, chocolate in fact! Okay, I know what your saying, that's not on the program... it is but I used A LOT of points to drink it... To be honest, I actually grabbed the glass and poured myself the chocolate milk and drank it, BEFORE checking the points value! Let me tell you, I will not be doing that again. I will check the points value FIRST, before eating/drinking anything. Of course, this comes out of habit. I never had to check into the meal/drink before hand, so I am hoping to will start to become a habit! All in all, the two days, were in fact, not the best ones, but I am hoping for a better week this one!
As I am writing this, I am chopping on carrot sticks! They are 0 points, so I'm okay there! For lunch today is a salad with a hard boiled egg, 0 pts, and 0 pts! (pts = points) And of course, I can't forget my water. This afternoon will be tough, as I have more paperwork and reading to do, and I have noticed that when I get bored or when I watch TV, I tend to munch! So I have to be so careful! Are you like that? For me night time is the worst time! I have purchased gum, so I'm hoping that will help me not think about eating.
I know this post was all over the place, with no apparent purpose, other than spew out my thoughts on paper, but I'm hoping you will stick with me, as when I do the weekly posts in the future, I hope to be logging my meals etc too!
Thank you for reading until the end of my verbal diarrhea.....
Until next time,
Cheryl Ann xo